how do u stop the overwhelming feeling of wanting to sit under your blanket in the dark and cry till you cant breathe and smack your head against the wall until you cant feel it anymore?
I’ve been there. The best thing you can do is to find a good therapist, but I understand that may not be possible. Finding a new hobby or even a new show/video game could help ease your depression a little. There are also a ton of great resources and communities online to help you cope. It will get better, I promise. Don’t lose hope!